Wintergirls

In my mind, an eating disorder is the ultimate manifestation of both poor body image, and a distorted self-perception. I graduated with a BS in Psychology last December, and in one of my undergrad classes, we devoted a large percentage of time to discussing eating disorders and where they stem from. Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson is one of the best books I've read this year, and I would say that it is the best book I've ever read that handles eating disorders. Lia is a young girl who has been suffering from anorexia for several years. She's been hospitalized twice, and the family tries to help keep watch over Lia, and make sure she is eating. They weigh her regularly and prepare meals and 'watch' her eat. But Lia is clever, and she is unable to give up her disorder. She cleverly lines the pockets of the robe she is weighed in with quarters and smears food on a plate before dumping it down the garbage disposal to give the appearance of having eaten. For a long time, Lia feels like she is in control and that losing all this weight makes her powerful. However, after the death of her former best friend, Cassie. Lia's world begins falling apart and she loses control over her life. Toward the end of the novel, she begins to make observations and gains new understanding that gives the reader hope she will overcome her illness. I think one of the most telling sentences in this book is when Lia really starts to realize what this disease is to her, and where her motivation to starve herself comes from. She keeps obsessive track of her weight, and gives herself goals- I'm 105 lbs? I need to be 100. And on from there. She steps on the scale one day and the number reads 89. Her thoughts, "I could say I'm excited, but that would be a lie. The number doesn't matter. If I got down to 070.00, I'd want 065.00. If I weighed 010.00, I wouldn't be happy until I got down to 005.00. The only number that would ever be enough is 0. Zero pounds, zero life, size zero, double-zero, zero point. Zero in tennis is love. I finally get it. (emphasis added, pg. 220) I think that there is too much focus placed on the body-image problems facing people who suffer from an eating disorder, and not enough attention given to their warped views of themselves. In one of my undergrad classes, we discussed this at length, and talked about new research being developed that suggests the root causes for many people suffering from eating disorders stem from far more than the desire to be skinny or even the desire to control at least one aspect of their lives. Although both of those play a role in the formation of the disorder, the new research suggests that these eating disorders actually stem more from the desire to disappear. Subconsciously they view themselves as unworthy of love, and that because of their flaws or imperfections, they are not worthy to take up space. So, they are literally trying to starve themselves out of existence. They don't necessarily want to die, but neither do they wish to live. It's scary research, but it's research that makes a frightening amount of sense. That LHA was able to grasp that idea and articulate it so well with just a small paragraph, and a simple sentence speaks volumes to me about her skill as a writer, and her ability to develop believable and realistic characters. Lia just breaks my heart. One of the most powerful aspects of the novel is also potentially distracting. LHA uses the strike through text to signify the difference between what Lia was thinking and what Lia actually said. Or, it could be what Lia thought vs. what she knew she was supposed to think. Either way, the strike through offers additional insight into the mind of Lia, and enables us as readers to better understand what she's really thinking. I recommend this book to everyone, even though I know it won't be for everyone. LHA doesn't pull her punches with this one, and I really felt that I was living the life of an anorexic teen along with Lia. And let me tell you, it was not comfortable. It was scary, painful and terrifying. I can only imagine how much worse it would be for someone actually suffering through this. Do yourself a favor and pick up a copy of this book as soon as possible. But I warn you, don't pick it up expecting a light read that will fill a few hours. This novel is gripping, intense and horrifying. It is one of the best books I've read all year and I just can't bring myself to give it anything but my highest rating. It is basically amazing in every way. Way to go Laurie, for creating a book that gives us such a vivid portrait of a young anorexic girl who suddenly understands what it is to live.

Lia and Cassie, best friends since childhood days, swore an oath: they would be the skinniest girls at school. Many years later, their friendship fell apart. When Cassie calls Lia 33 times in one night, Lia doesn't answer - the next day, Cassie is found dead in a hotel room. Lia's feelings of guilt make her anorexia even worse. Cassie starts to haunt her, trying to draw her into the world of wintergirls, a world between life and death... Wintergirls is an amazing book. Usually, I'm a very slow reader, but I finished this book in two days. Laurie Halse Anderson has a great writing style. She creates beautiful and scary pictures, drawing the reader into Lia's world. Even though English is not my native language, the book was easy to understand and it was almost impossible to put it down. There are several stylistic devices used to express Lia's thoughts and feelings (crossed out sentences, the exact number of calories written after every food), but it's not overdone. Of course, this is not a medical guidebook, but I think Anderson did a great job portraying Lia's mental illness. I'm not anorexic, but I was impressed by the accuracy of Lia's depressive, obsessive and anxious behaviour. She might not be the stereotype of an anorexic (highly competitive, trying to please everyone), and there is no real reason pointed out that caused her disease, but I liked that. In real life, not every person is a textbook example of a specific disorder, and there's not always a reason everyone thinks to be a "proper reason" to develop a mental disease (rape, severe parental abuse). People with a rather normal life can develop a disorder, maybe because of a genetic disposition, maybe because of reasons that seem ridiculous to others. Lia's parents, especially her mother, seem to be quite contoling. Their relationship broke apart, and the wish for more control in this chaos, as well for more independence might have been a trigger for Lia's anorexia, but we never know exactly. Which is a good thing to me, because it's not always that easy in real life. It is also obvious that Lia's parents love her, but are helpless to find a proper way to behave towards their daughter and deal with her issues. They are not the cold blooded monsters with unsatisfiable demands we find in other books or movies about anorexia. But Lia is just as helpless as they are, unable to fight her disease, to let anyone get close enough to safe her. In the end, everyone is a victim of the deadly disease anorexia. Even though she's not an easy character, I could really relate to Lia, and I felt for her. This is definitely a pageturner - beautiful, sad, horrifying, haunting and heartwrenching, but not hopeless. If you can deal with the difficult topic, this is must read!

great book!

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I received the book yesterday evening, started reading and... finished it at 3 in the morning. I was just unable to stop reading! It's a very chilling book but caught my attention from the beginning till the end.

Is a good book.

The story is told from the point of view of Lia, a high school senior struggling with eating disorders. Then her childhood BFF Cassie dies. As Lia's already tenuous control on her eating disorder starts to slip, Cassie's ghost starts haunting her... I was not expecting much from this book - as an adult reader, YA fiction tends to disappoint more times than prove you wrong. However, this book is flawless. The language is crisp and original, the struggles so vividly portrayed it makes your heart hurt without slipping into purple prose territory. Originally I read this thinking I could maybe assign it as school reading. However, Lia's deceptive behavior is described in so much detail, how she fools her parents, teachers, the people around her, that assigning this book in class would be a huge can of worms that I simply do not want to open. Nonetheless, it is a great read - the insight given into Lia's state of mind is fascinating. She thinks restricting and starving herself makes her strong and invulnerable, yet you see the contrary effects of this at every turn. The way the mind of a person suffering from ED works is extremely well explored and depicted. Add to that the story of the haunting by her best friend and you got an instant page turner. All in all, definite recommendation for pretty much all readers age 14 and up, though this is a book that will definitely benefit from being discussed, especially if you read it with teenagers.